A man I know got a copy of the letter that was sent to Nerode. He read it to me over the phone, and I wrote down what it said. I wish I didn't miss some things, but I think this letter has enough said. Where it is illegible blame me.
Februrary 14, 1938
Dear Teacher (Sri Nerode),
Something has gone wrong in this organization....I feel I can't reveal the things I want to enclose...Your teachings are good and true...You were a friend of mother and I...I am unburdening my heart to you, my friend. I am sure you can help me in any way possible.
On November 22, 1937, You remember Swamiji came to Hollywood and asked us to come to Mt. Washington to stay? (This was she and her mother. This woman and her mother were coming to Hollywood and met and befriended them and they were homeless and asked to come to Washington.)
After one day at Washington, Swamiji wanted us to stay for Christmas. I noticed that things were not right. I know you love him and this work, so this may be a shock. I don't think Americans should be fooled.
From the week in Encinitas he had me to come to see him from 12 to 2 in the evening often. I tried to persuade him to let me go to his.....
He would look at me and talk about sex with women. He had me to take an oath of friendship and to keep things secret. He said I was creating a barrier by not letting him kiss me. But he would kiss me. He would never hurt me but bless me since God worked through him.
I would not have been more shocked if a thunder bolt...He asked me to stand naked before him to prove his trust. Wonder if others have to do it? They have keys to his room, and they go to each other's room. He comes to my room and holds my hand and wherever he touches me I am blessed. I have pushed his hands away. Several night in Encinitas in his bedroom with door locked. He wanted me in bed with him where he kissed me. He asked me to be quiet. He kept me to 3-4 a.. He would not let me leave. He wanted to get me a silver fox cape. He got Faye to take me to my room. Faye slept in the living room, so no one would suspect.
He gave me William the Conqueror to read, and he said that he knew me then too. He asked me to pick outa photos of the woman who was her. He said that the initial to one of my names is the same as then as was her character. I was his wife back then and that is why he was so interested in me and thought a great deal of me. He told me I was then and will be again, and it hurt him to think others would hold and kiss me besides him.
Margaret Lancaster read the book, so did he say the same to her?
A while back immaculate conception came up between Margaret and my mother. Should he discuss this and keep them away from boys? What does he offer them for their so called renunciation? He talks abut sex that I wonder in his office at Mt. Washington. We were on the couch, and he pulled me back on his big lotus pillow and kissed and held me so tight I had to fight to get my breath.
I created a barrier. I got so sick and disgusted. I quit talking about it. He said a spiritual man can touch a woman and it would be on a spiritual plane. Jesus had Mary Magdalene in a certain way. That is blasphemy, so I don't believe it.
Mother and I have not been going to Encinitas...Before this, Mrs. Darling (Ma Durga) had seldom spoke to us. Could she be jealous? Could the girls are finally __their jealous ends? They are cold to mother and I. Maybe the reason we are left out is because I resisted him too much and finally refused his attention which I consider unspiritual. I have held this ___ to my promise. I am telling to liberate my soul and I need help in understanding. These are just the main happenings but others I try to forget.
My ideals and high standards have been demoralized. And hoping you may find a way to stop more souls from being disillusioned. To straighten the disillusioned friends who have experience as I have .
February 21, 1938
I wrote a letter to ____
He forced me to write a letter to say he was moral, a testimony of good character. More has happened. If I didn't sign it he would throw you out in 3 days. Please clean the organization. You love Yogananda and pray you can bring about a spiritual and harmonious vibration to this places as we found in your downtown temple. We are willing and want to straighten this mess out.
Signed, Mrs. E.